i hope that when you find yourself you're more than just a baby doll

today was a good day for music. except for that 3 minutes of hell when i couldnt find the remote and some lameass mariah carey video was on. i used to like her music. now it makes me want to vomit my insides from my ears. but at 2 while watching gh so many good videos came on... play something country, as good as i once was, you'll think of me (i love that song and don't hear it enough!), mississippi girl, baby doll.. it was a good hour for music, only i missed too much of my beloved gh because I was listening to the aforementioned music. thats why i tape it as i'm watching it :). go ahead and laugh, i know i'm a nerd.

also, boys = too much trouble. they're bigger drama queens than girls. except arbel, because he can make me laugh like michela makes me laugh. holy crow. its been a while since i laughed like that. probably since pokernight, but still. and i miss michela. im having withdrawals because i cant just call her and be like dude remember this? and spark a 3 hour conversation about garbage because she's not 4 cities over. or 6, whatever. either way, life is boring w/o friends. like today i was sad because krista is gone and i know we would have had fun times in the sun today. its a lot more boring when youre sittingby yourself in the sun than when youre rafting the lagoon with your best bud. withdrawls! i need tomorrow like its nobodys business haha. i can't wait to go to la and hang out wif krista and ally though because i think this is the longest i've gone w/o seeing krista (not counting france). i sound mental, i know. but i even listened to that one emo song i dont like because it reminded me of her and she was at class (i assume). i'm a sad panda. a sad panda who drank too much iced coffee.

and i think i only know the days of the week according to whats going on on tv. like i was so off last night becausei hadn't seen vegas in so long and i was like o crap that means today is monday. and i know that friday is a good day on gh so i'm excited about friday which makes me tink every day is friday. and for some reason i thought today was wednesday. i dont even know what im talking about any more. all i know is that i took the quiz and michael baldwin is my genoa city match. i love christian le blanc. i watch y&r just for him and greg rikkart. that show is good. this isnt going anywhere anymore, not that it was going anywhere to begin wif, but i'll end now and tell you to listen to pat green "baby doll". and then listen to natasha bedingfield "these words" till you memorize all the words so you can sing with me.